ok, i need to vent, but don't want to on facebook, so i'm gonna do it here sad well, miss jessica was a good girl last night and went down at around 7pm, (in her own room now) so by 8pm i decided i would go to bed too but i had to get up three times before 9.30 for two phone calls that were for me, and some panadol for a headache, so it was nearly 10pm when i finally fell asleep. but i was up again just before midnight for jessica and she stayed up for two hours cause she had one last burp that she wouldn't get up, and no amount of back rubbing in every position, laying down and sitting up again, etc, etc, would get that burp up, so by 2am, i'm tears cause she won't go down, and cursing dp cause he gets a full nights sleep every night and only helps feed if i ask him to. i nearly woke dp twice but each time i went to wake him, she fell asleep in my arms, so i'd put her down, and 5min later, she's awake again!!
when she finally fell asleep, i couldn't so ended up writing a letter to dp explaining how i felt (which he briefly looked at when he got up for work, screwed it up and threw it at me (bad aim though!!) and said, "why don't you talk to me??" my answer, cause he doesn't take in what i say, he butts in and doesn't let me finish and reckons i'm whinging and that i'm the one that wanted another child, (he did too, just doesn't acknowledge it) so i have to put up with it, "i'm the mother"!!
well jessica finally fell fast asleep, until 3am, for her next bottle, just cause she's only been asleep 1 1/2hrs, doesn't mean she's not hungry!! lucky for her, she didn't quite finish it and fell asleep again, and stayed down by 3.30am, but, she was back up again at 5am, aarrgggghhh!!! this is when the mini argument with dp happened. so now, who knows what his mood's going to be like when he comes home from work, and i am still deciding whether i want to give him the silent treatment or not, and so far, i can see jessica is going to be a handful today as well, yep, she's crying again after nodding off for a couple of minutes!! must go, and see what her problem is this time.
thanks for listening girls, cause not many people know what it's like with a baby that won't settle while you're running on less than 6hrs sleep