I have been with my husband for 6 years now and we have 2 gorgeous boys together. We met when I was just pregnant with my daughter and reeling from a hideous situation with her father. He has taken it all on and she is his for all intents and purposes. He also has 2 children from a previous relationship. They are now 10 and 8. My problem is that I really can't help but not feel any love for them. I dread the weekends we have them and feel like I'm putting on a show for them every time they come and it is exhausting. My husband knows I really struggle with this and I hate that he has to go through it. I feel so overwhelmed with it all - it has even crossed my mind to walk away because I would never make him choose between me or his children. I am assuming my feelings are from jealousy of some sort but I don't know.
Is anyone else out there feeling like me? Or am I the most hideous person to walk the earth?