With my 2nd bub it was amazing! i was so happy. breastfed for 6months and loved it! i so enjoyed been a mum to him.
3rd time around. different partner, i found the pregnancy a struggle, then the birth was fast and i would say it was easy but kinda scary been my first drug free birth. but this baby it totally different. so hard!!! he constantly crys or screams day and night, he wont go to anyone else. im starting to feel really down. all these people i know are having their first babies and are enjoying it so much. meanwhile im here struggling with my 3rd, im jealous.
im constantly tired, grumpy and feel like im going to cry all the time. I love breastfeeding but at the moment i feel like i should just give it up then maybe he might be a happier baby. I Have no family help and it would be pointless anyway because no1 can take care of my lil man. my partner cant even give him a bottle, he will just scream until i take him.
I hate been a housewife, i hate cooking, cleaning and doing the washing. I just dont know what to do anymore.
Paige 23/5/06 Tyler 27/11/08