My partner and I have 4 beautiful children together, DP has a good job, we have a roof over our heads & are all relatively healthy -All of which I am very grateful for..
But I am finding myself feeling so down and crappy lately. sad
I guess you could say already 2012 has been a rough year for us...
DP's brother passed away beginning of January and my mum passed away early February , DS was born & diagnosed with a heart condition mid February, dd3s health has been rocky and just last week I lost my close friend to cancer.
I don't have any close family or friends around and feel so alone.. -I have tried talking to DP but he doesn't seem to understand.
Im barely out of the house especially since DS arrival. The house is a mess and as soon as I've cleaned up one thing, there's something else to clean! The washing is piling up and at some point I need to get the groceries..
I feel like I'm always the one to be feeding, bathing and dressing the children. Yes dp works during the week and is often tired when he comes home but even on the weekends he doesn't help much..
I worried about having a 4th but DP was all for it, promising to help with everything... -I don't regret DS at all, I love him SO much but it wasn't entirely my idea for a 4th and I feel like I'm doing it alone. I don't know what to do.. sad
I get so angry and annoyed at the smallest thing and cry over anything.. -Just tonight dd3 refused to eat her meal, spitting and throwing her food at me and I just cried..
I love all my children so much, more than life itself and wouldn't trade them for anything but I feel like I'm failing as their mother...
I don't spend any time with them because I'm always so tired trying to keep up with everything and feel like they're missing out..
And now here I am blabbering on about such silly problems. sorry