Sorry this is a bit of a vent about my sadness.
I'm feeling so crappy, DH and i are TTC#2 but it's just not happening. With DS we were not even trying and it just happened.
I never thought i would start feeling the way i am, i should be over the moon that i have the family that i do.
I have no one to talk to, we have not told any family or friends that we are TTC. Dh just dose not get the way i am feeling and neither do i really.
A very close friend of mine came to see me last week and told me that she was pregnant again and i just wan't to burst out in tears but i bit my lip smiled and acted so happy. But as soon as she left i could not stop crying.
Then DH's aunty who has 4 kids and is 43 messaged everyone a few day's ago saying that she was pregnant and it's a big accident. When i called her to say congratulations she said that it was an accident and if she knew she was pregnant before 14 weeks (thats when she found out) she would have done something about it.
And then last night i found out that a friend was also pregnant.
I swear my heart skipped a few beats (and not in a good way) and it was aching. It really hurt.
I'm not a jealous person but it seem's that it has taken over me. I never thought i would ever feel the way i am feeling and it sucks. I want to be so happy for everyone but i'm just struggling.
Sorry i just had to get this out.