just needed to get it out

please dont judge...

i swear im not ment to be happy
my first pregnancy i get cheated on and treated horrible so left him, got a new bf down the track things were perfect we were a happy family everything was going well until one weekend when he crashed the car never to be seen again sad then onli 10months after that i was lucky not die in a car crash of my own (i was not driving) now im pregnant again to a guy who bullied me into keeping the baby and is now tring to bully me into giving him the baby full time rather then support or help me and now on top of that my friends have abandoned me and my boyfriend has been remanded in custody for silly mistakes he made ages ago

dont want anyone feeling sorry for me or judgen me just really needed to get it out so it wasnt eating me up inside all i want is a time machine to go back to when i had things perfect

please dont judge...

i swear im not ment to be happy
my first pregnancy i get cheated on and treated horrible so left him, got a new bf down the track things were perfect we were a happy family everything was going well until one weekend when he crashed the car never to be seen again sad then onli 10months after that i was lucky not die in a car crash of my own (i was not driving) now im pregnant again to a guy who bullied me into keeping the baby and is now tring to bully me into giving him the baby full time rather then support or help me and now on top of that my friends have abandoned me and my boyfriend has been remanded in custody for silly mistakes he made ages ago

dont want anyone feeling sorry for me or judgen me just really needed to get it out so it wasnt eating me up inside all i want is a time machine to go back to when i had things perfect

Sorry to hear your having a hard time sad
All I can say is if you want things to be better only YOU can make them better get rid of the negative things in your life and make it better for you and your children, learn from your mistakes and ask for help if you need to there are many places that are willing to help like the Salvo's and women's centre's

don't be afraid to ask for help or to want a better life you deserve to be safe and happy, your children will love you all the more for it!!
Good luck

Time to start making some positive choices in your life and be responsible for you and your baby. I don't think its that you are not meant to be happy, I think it sounds like you've made some poor choices and allowed some not so great people into your life (not judging you, I have done exactly the same thing!). But only you can change that so I'd suggest getting in touch with a Women's Information and Referral service or something similar in your state and they can link you up with anything that might be helpful to start moving forward and head towards a brighter future. There really is so much out there but you have to seek it out, it wont come to you. Even just to have someone to support you, these women are wonderful and so supportive.

Try to keep your chin up, I know what it feels like but it will get better as long as you do what you can to make it better smile

Good luck