1) I want DD1 and DD2 to be in the same place and I think it would be difficult to get them both into the same home day care.
2) I didn't want to be pulling them out in 12 months time for DD1 to go to Kindy then DD2 will have to start out again in a new centre.
Anyway, this week Monday and Tuesday DD1 and I went to a couple of transition days at the day care centre and then she went by herself on Wednesday. She was totally fine saying goodbye to me. She just waved and then she walked out the door in the massive playground all by herself. And this is what broke my heart. She only just turned 2 on Sunday and I am so used to her being watched pretty much all the time and here is my little girl walking off by herself with nobody watching her. I think I cried for half the day. Then when I went to pick her up, I was walking through and I saw her walking around the yard crying with nobody tending to her (WTF!!!). I went out and she saw me and burst into more tears. I picked her up and said to one of the teachers "She was just over there crying". They said that she had been really good all day and that something must have just happened. If somebody had been watching her wouldn't they know? DD1 then proceeded to cry all the way home - from what we gathered that night, I think she may have made a friend that disappeared on her. Then I proceeded to cry for the next 2 hours.
For the last couple of days I just keep running those moments through my head or dropping her off and picking her up and it has left me with a very very heavy heart. Is she ready? Am I not ready? Should I leave it and see how she goes? Any advice would be really helpful.