Ok where to start!
You tell me i need to tell you about my feelings more, that i should be more open with you etc... Well i was... but then i soon figured that anytime i did this through any means of communications (Verbal, text, internet, phone calls etc etc) it just turned into an arguement... so i soon figured it was just easier not to tell you my problems and keep them built up inside until i got over the problem or feeling. But today you really pissed me right off... You asked me what the problem was cos i wasnt myself, and i told you, then like always you made it all about you and how it affects you, and how i should care more about you, and you, you, you, you, you... Then an arguement broke out, cos i was honest enough to say, that you should be thinking about how i feel for once, that maybe i wouldnt feel this way if you were more considerate of those around you... So what did you do... Oh big macho man pushing and throwing around his 36 weeks preganet missus( to I quote "Scare ya") Wow that was just awesome... talk about showing me the god damn love there!! Then I decide i have had enough, and obviously im right you are to inconsiderate to care about anyone but yourself, that i listen to you rant, about how its all my fault, how im just a selfish person, etc etc... Then you complain that im too sore to eat dinner.. Well ya know what im sorry, im sorry i made you push and throw me around like a rag doll, and now im in incredible amounts of pain... and you call me selfish... Pfft please!
After dinner i do the normal routine, clean the kitchen while bathing and putting to be a toddler, while you sit on your arse and play on ya computer! Anywho i make me a coffee, sit on the couch, you ask me whats wrong (Oh god how thoughtful your actually thinking about someone else for once) "Im sore it hurts to do anything" your response to that "Well you shouldnt have pissed me off, its your fault your hurting now grow up and stop being a childish drama queen"... Wow and to think i thought you might have had some kind remorse for what you did! Pfft your pathetic... Laying in bed, oh no how could i possibly forget to close the bedroom window?? You go off at me... Your horrible.. How hard is it do something that dont involve a bloody computer??? Then i get up out of bed, cos i cant sleep, cos you guessed it... Im still in pain... And tthen a few minutes later you get up and follow me outside, and tell me how selfish i am cos i cant sleep, cos im in pain, and its keeping you awake?? Umm excuse me?? Did i hear you right??? Im being selfish cos i cant sleep??? Your horrible... You know not only are you horrible but your bloody lazy too... Theres only 2 things i ever ask you do.. and thats 1, Take your tools back down to the shed after you finish with them, or else they sit on the table for months on end, and then you loose them, and then i get the blame...
2, take ya motocross gear/stuff out of the car and put it away where ya got it from, unless it needs washing then put it in the wash basket!
How hard are these two things to comphrened? I mean you never do them, not until i have asked you once a day for over a week, and then you do it cos im nagging, or i go to do it, but you dont want me touching it incase i loose something... Seriously.. I do everything for you... absolutely everything, even order skip bins, and get your mum to come down and motivate you to clean out the shed, that you have been complaining about and saying you will clean for over a year, take care of you and tend to your every need when you fall off your stupid motorbike... and yet im selfish... im a drama queen... and i cause all the problems in our relationship...
I sit here as i re-read this, thinking why am i with you? Why should i care about you and for you as much as do? Why do i day after day put up with all the crap? And i can only answer those with..."Cos i love you, and im holding on to the hope that one day you might open your heart up to love me and care about me too"
You tell me i need to tell you about my feelings more, that i should be more open with you etc... Well i was... but then i soon figured that anytime i did this through any means of communications (Verbal, text, internet, phone calls etc etc) it just turned into an arguement... so i soon figured it was just easier not to tell you my problems and keep them built up inside until i got over the problem or feeling. But today you really pissed me right off... You asked me what the problem was cos i wasnt myself, and i told you, then like always you made it all about you and how it affects you, and how i should care more about you, and you, you, you, you, you... Then an arguement broke out, cos i was honest enough to say, that you should be thinking about how i feel for once, that maybe i wouldnt feel this way if you were more considerate of those around you... So what did you do... Oh big macho man pushing and throwing around his 36 weeks preganet missus( to I quote "Scare ya") Wow that was just awesome... talk about showing me the god damn love there!! Then I decide i have had enough, and obviously im right you are to inconsiderate to care about anyone but yourself, that i listen to you rant, about how its all my fault, how im just a selfish person, etc etc... Then you complain that im too sore to eat dinner.. Well ya know what im sorry, im sorry i made you push and throw me around like a rag doll, and now im in incredible amounts of pain... and you call me selfish... Pfft please!
After dinner i do the normal routine, clean the kitchen while bathing and putting to be a toddler, while you sit on your arse and play on ya computer! Anywho i make me a coffee, sit on the couch, you ask me whats wrong (Oh god how thoughtful your actually thinking about someone else for once) "Im sore it hurts to do anything" your response to that "Well you shouldnt have pissed me off, its your fault your hurting now grow up and stop being a childish drama queen"... Wow and to think i thought you might have had some kind remorse for what you did! Pfft your pathetic... Laying in bed, oh no how could i possibly forget to close the bedroom window?? You go off at me... Your horrible.. How hard is it do something that dont involve a bloody computer??? Then i get up out of bed, cos i cant sleep, cos you guessed it... Im still in pain... And tthen a few minutes later you get up and follow me outside, and tell me how selfish i am cos i cant sleep, cos im in pain, and its keeping you awake?? Umm excuse me?? Did i hear you right??? Im being selfish cos i cant sleep??? Your horrible... You know not only are you horrible but your bloody lazy too... Theres only 2 things i ever ask you do.. and thats 1, Take your tools back down to the shed after you finish with them, or else they sit on the table for months on end, and then you loose them, and then i get the blame...
2, take ya motocross gear/stuff out of the car and put it away where ya got it from, unless it needs washing then put it in the wash basket!
How hard are these two things to comphrened? I mean you never do them, not until i have asked you once a day for over a week, and then you do it cos im nagging, or i go to do it, but you dont want me touching it incase i loose something... Seriously.. I do everything for you... absolutely everything, even order skip bins, and get your mum to come down and motivate you to clean out the shed, that you have been complaining about and saying you will clean for over a year, take care of you and tend to your every need when you fall off your stupid motorbike... and yet im selfish... im a drama queen... and i cause all the problems in our relationship...
I sit here as i re-read this, thinking why am i with you? Why should i care about you and for you as much as do? Why do i day after day put up with all the crap? And i can only answer those with..."Cos i love you, and im holding on to the hope that one day you might open your heart up to love me and care about me too"
