Thank you for your enquiry. It can be very difficult trying to raise a child on your own and many women that have supportive partner feel the same way as you do. There are also lots of hormonal changes in the months following birth that can make you feel a bit strange. All of the feelings that you are experiencing are normal and very common, especially in the early days of motherhood. There is so much for you to learn and lots of changes to make and you never seem to be able to get enough sleep. It is also common to blame yourself for everything – even the father. Try not to, it is important that you look after yourself and then you can care for your baby.
Do you visit a young Mum’s group? These are great support for new mums and they can also provide access to professionals that can help you if you think that you are feeling more down than normal. Try contacting your Early Childhood Health Centre (under E in the white pages). Also the hospital where you gave birth should be able to provide you with some information about centres and support groups in your area. It is definitely worth trying to get some help and support as it sounds as if you want to enjoy being a Mum and sometimes this is all that you need.
<a href="http://www.nswmidwives.com.au/">NSW Midwives Association</a>
Note: This information is not designed to replace that of your health professional.