i really am feeling screwed up at the moment,as i found out last sunday that my hubby has been smsing some girl,that he reckons he met on myspace.He says it started off as friendship than turned to writing sleezy sexy messages.I found out as hes been acting so distant and a total ass toward me for months.Than I had to go with my gut feeling and do my own investigating to unfortunately find filthy messages...which if anyone had read them,they pretty much spelt out that they had slept together.
as soon as i read them i ofcourse confronted him and he at first amitted to doing everything apart from the deed.
Its just that he keeps on saying lies after lies,and u have to have a good memory if u wanna be a good liar,which he clearly doesnt.
He now says he only agreeded with me with me thinking that he slept with this person to hurt me.
Though in my eyes even if he hasnt slept with this person,smsing dirty messages and sending pics of his parts are just as bad.
I found out that this has been going on for 4mths,as i rung the telephone company,and the amount of sms have been unbelievable,last mth he sent her neally 900..
Throughout the week i have just got abuse after abuse,and i really dont know what to do as we have a 2yr old and im due to have second bubba in a month(though my bp has gone up and doc now says im going to be induced in 2weeks-yeah great timing)
I have tried to ask him what was wrong for months and suggested for him to see a counsellor as he has seemed depressed.little did i know that he kept going to bed just to sms the tart.
his mood swings have been out of control,as one minute he says hes sorry(which hasnt been that much)than he says that im a sneak and that i should have never had looked at his phone.
But its like all he can think of is his phone,as he says its been like a drug to him,as she would make him feel good about himself than thats been taken away,so ofcourse now he resents me.
He finally went to the doctor yesterday and is on tabs.
Its just that i dont want to stay with him for the wrong reasons...
and now that the trust has gone than whats the point with being with him.
i really dont know what to do as we both should be getting excited to meet our new bubba thats going to come into the world soon,but instead,we have to deal with this crap.
Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated,as this is really doing my head in...
Bec,VIC,MIKI 16/7/05 JELLYBEAN EDD 24/8/07