Ok here goes, I think my 2 little girls would be better off in daycare, I feel like I cant give them the attention they need and I find that I am yelling at them all the time, I dont want to but latley everything they do just really frustrates me and I just snap. My 4yr old is the worst, she has an undiagonised hearing problem (wont go into it) but she will ask me something and wont hear when I answer her so she keeps repeating herself until i snap and yell at her to be quiet I feel so bad about it but I cant help it, she also knows how to push my buttons so will be naughty, she does pretty much what she likes and if I tell her she cant have something she goes and gets it anyway and her 19 month old sister copies everything, I usually end up yelling at them but now the yelling is just normal and they just ignore it. This afternoon I was crying because I couldnt handle them and they wernt even being naughty, just being annoying to me, my hubby is no help, if he sees I'm stressed he either ignores it cos he doesnt want to deal with winging kids or he ends up yelling at them and making them cry which makes it a whole lot worse for me. we had a weekend away last weekend which was good but when we got home it was all back to normal, I hate being like this and I dont know what to do, I feel like such a bad mother/person and I feel like my kids are suffering for it and hate what I'm doing but I cant make it any better. Now I'm crying again.
2 little darlings 29/01/03 + 17/03/05