I am a teacher too, with a 9 week old.
You are exactly how i was, and still am sometimes. But now I have a little more confidence!
I think as teachers, we always seem to know what is going on, how to do it, and if we don't, we look it up and find out.
You can't do that for being a mum. It is all trial and error and something new happens each day and sometimes you cope, sometimes you don't. It is hard not being in control!
And not having anything to do, except baby baby baby!
I find if you are breast feeding, it is even harder, because you are still learning how to do that so going out seems just too hard!
I got/get so bored at home. My friends are all teachers so they work all day and I have nobody to go out with. Now that it is holidays, they have all gone on holidays as they all need the break!
Set a goal for the week, not the day. As soon as it is achieved, set another goal! I say not the day as if something happens, you can't get it done and you get frustrated etc all over again. It can be as simple as making your first trip to the shopping centre. Your first long drive, doing something crafty...whatever you are into!
She will get into a routine. I used to watch the clock, even though i was demand feeding. She would want a feed every 2 hours, or 3, or 4 or 5 or whenever. Whichever way, I was always expressing as I had so much milk. So i felt I could never go out. Now, i feed her and go out straight away. I know i have at least 3 hours before a feed and i know i wont leak everywhere! So it does get better!
I think everyone gets teary, but if it is all the time, talk to someone about it. You may not get answers, but at least you will get it off your chest. Mums are great. When she asks if you need anything...say YES! Get her over so she can make you a coffee and you talk about stuff. She might be able to do your washing or something while you just vege!
With DH at home, leave him with bubs, express some milk so he can feed her and you go out and do something for you...get a hair cut, legs waxed, shop, go for a peaceful walk..something where it is all about you! You are really lucky he is so supportive...I am struggling to get my DH to help with bubs, he helps out with housework etc, but not so much DD. I am getting there with him, slowly. Make sure your DH involves himself with DD, to take the pressure off of you. If you are expressing, get him to feed more regularly. I felt that i was a dairy cow and that was all i was for 2 weeks. I hated that feeling. And your boobs were on demand, not on your time. At least if you have some EBM, she gets fed on demand and you get your body back, if only for a short time!
Also, make sure you go to a mothers group. Mine doesn't start until tomorrow (holidays cancelled all the sessions until now) and I have been hanging out for it. I have never been into stuff like that, but as I am the first in my group of friends to have a bub, i want to talk to people who know where you are coming from...and who aren't working!
If ever you want to chat...feel free to message me. Love talking (as you can see from my HUGE post!).