Now I have a newborn and its going fine. But I have no one to talk to during the day and find myself feeling down. When I see my family, I'm always very snappy with them, I yell and order them around. I cannot control it. I always tell them how to do things and expect them to do things properly. They are only human and I wish I could stop. But all this cleaning and looking after my husband - making him happy all the time has made me like this. I find I am looking after his needs and maintaining the house and hardly having energy enough to look after my baby. I look after her well, dont get me wrong but I feel like im no doing good enough before I hve so much housework to get through each day. My husband is very fussy. Everything needs to be sparkling clean. He is a very tidy person and I know what he is like so when I see others not doing things properly I snap. My husband didnt like me having male friends, and thats all I had. I never had female friends, so now I lost all those friends. I am finding myself alone. Not even my cousins have seen my 12week old. No one but my parents and husband and a few of his friends (who Im not close to) visited me in hosptial. My mother has 8 brothers and sisters who all have children so you can see I do have a big family. I just dont understand why no one visits and cares enough to come over and see how I am doing.