Hi guys, just need to get some stuff out and thought I would post here rather than starting a new thread. Having a really bad day emotionally today. I told DH to take the car to work but I am so wishing I didn't now, not that I have anywhere to go or anything to do.
I don't want to do this today, I don't want to be a mum, I don't want to be a wife. I just don't want to BE at all. I have been holding it together pretty well but today.........not so much. My Hubby is wonderful and so understanding but sometimes he just doesn't get it. People ask him how I am and he tells them how well I am coping and everytime he does it feels like another little piece of me dies because on the outside I probably look like I am coping but on the inside I feel like a little bit more of me dies each day. It's getting harder and harder to drag my a$$ out of bed each morning. It's getting harder to smile for my beautiful daughter each day. Mothers day is fast approaching and I am dreading it. DD's Kindergarten are doing a mothers day thing tomorrow that I have to go to for HER sake but I can tell you right now, sitting around with a bunch of women I don't know, putting on a happy face and pretending that my world isn't crumbling is about the last thing I want to do right now. Sunday is mothers day, Sunday I would also have been 23 weeks pregnant.
I'm feeling so alone right now sad
Im so sorry for your loss. How was your mothers day and how are you coping now? Have you told your DH how you feel? Maybe if he knew that your not coping he might be able to help you more. Have you looked into councilling? it might help. I hope you have a better day today. GBH!!