Thanks ladies. Slowly coming to terms with things but have accepted that there will be good and bad days, and still frustrated with being in limbo. The support on here is amazing.
*Beaker* - you are so right about not putting your life on hold to TTC. I am usually the same but think I am just overthinking everything at the moment because of what we're going through, which I shouldn't. I have a cousin who found out she was pregnant at 25 weeks, complete accident, did all the wrong things since she didn't know, missed all the early monitoring/tests, and baby turned out completely fine and healthy. Doesn't seem fair, but it is life I guess.
When do you start your new cycle - do you do Clomid day 5-9 as well?
Butterflylove - those necklaces are gorgeous. I bought myself a little necklace the other day, with a little flower bud as a memory and symbol of hope. I've worn it a few times so far and had compliments but only DH and I know the meaning behind it.
Sorry to hear you would have been halfway, I'd be sad too. The milestones must be devastating, especially if you know someone who is pregnant around the time you would have been due. I know the feeling about positivity too. Every time someone asks me how I am, I always find it hard to answer without adding in something negative. First it was feeling shitty about fertility issues and now a loss.
Chickadee Peanut - Losing weight on Clomid is a great effort, I think it made me gain a kilo or two! Well done. smile
MeggyMeffen - I am so so sorry about your loss.
Merry Christmas to you all! Hopefully this time next year we are all either pregnant or celebrating Christmas with a new baby. x