Hi I just really needed to write all this down as I thought I was doing well until today....
I am 27 years old and married to the love of my life we have been together for 5 years and married for 2 and this year we decided we were ready to start trying for a baby so we did everything we could to make sure everything was in our favour. We changed our food habits to all healthy foods, we lost a heap of a weight and we start taking our pre-natal vitamins 3 months before trying to conceive as per our doctors suggestion. We went of the pill and after only 1 cycle we feel pregnant! We were over the moon we felt so blessed and so lucky that this had happened for us so quickly and like all expected parents we started to dream and plan all the wonderful things we would do and how our life would be with our very own little baby. At Christmas we very excitedly called every family member and best buddy we had that we were 10 weeks pregnant and over the moon! Everything was going great, morning sickness, exhausted, food aversions everything and I couldn't have been happier! Then the day finally came for our 12 week scan and we were ecstatic I drank my 600mls of water and sat cross legged for the massive 2hr drive to the scan center. The moment had finally come but the tech went very quiet and then she asked if i had, had any spotting and I knew I had lost our baby. The doctor came in to tell us that we had, had a missed miscarriage the baby had stopped developing at 9 weeks but my hormones carried on as if everything was normal so for 3 weeks our baby had been dead inside me and it was devastating knowing that when we had told everyone at Christmas we had already lost our little nuggie! We knew we had done nothing wrong and it was just this baby wasn't meant to be but I have never felt such pain or loss in my life, my husband was devastated and we sat in the room holding each other and crying for what felt like a life time.
The next day I had a d&c to remove the remaining tissue which was another awful ordeal for us, they told my husband it would be no longer then 15mins, 45mins later i still wasn't out and no-one had told him anything. The reason why I was so long was because on top of crying for my loss I also had a panic attack about being put under (hospitals freak me out) so they had to force me under. When I woke up I told them to get my husband, poor Jack was beside himself and my whole body was in shock I was ghost white and my whole body was shaking. The worst part is they didn't put the pad in right so when they pulled the blanket back the first thing we both saw was just blood down both my legs it was awful after 5hrs we were told we could finally go home.
We spent the weekend just holding each other and trying to relax, we stupidly went back to work on Monday and found out we are not the kind of people that can work through that kind of pain. Thankfully we have a wonderful employer who gave us both a weeks paid compassionate leave and we went away to the coast and swam every day and ate what ever we wanted and just held one another. During this time I was also had debilitating cramps to the point where i couldn't stand which was also lots of fun.
So we found out on the 9th January and had the d&c on the 10th fast forward to today and I thought i was doing well until this morning!! One of the women my mum works with (obviously one my mum hadn't told I had lost the baby) came up to me put her hand on my stomach and said congrats how far along are you now? Blah I burst into tears but thankfully as always hubby was by my side to hug me and tell me it would be ok so that's what has prompted this very long explanation of my missed miscarriage I just needed to get it all out uninterrupted and hopefully help me heal a little more!
I'm told your extremely fertile after a d&c so crossing our fingers and toes we will get our baby soon....
Stina
xxxx
I am 27 years old and married to the love of my life we have been together for 5 years and married for 2 and this year we decided we were ready to start trying for a baby so we did everything we could to make sure everything was in our favour. We changed our food habits to all healthy foods, we lost a heap of a weight and we start taking our pre-natal vitamins 3 months before trying to conceive as per our doctors suggestion. We went of the pill and after only 1 cycle we feel pregnant! We were over the moon we felt so blessed and so lucky that this had happened for us so quickly and like all expected parents we started to dream and plan all the wonderful things we would do and how our life would be with our very own little baby. At Christmas we very excitedly called every family member and best buddy we had that we were 10 weeks pregnant and over the moon! Everything was going great, morning sickness, exhausted, food aversions everything and I couldn't have been happier! Then the day finally came for our 12 week scan and we were ecstatic I drank my 600mls of water and sat cross legged for the massive 2hr drive to the scan center. The moment had finally come but the tech went very quiet and then she asked if i had, had any spotting and I knew I had lost our baby. The doctor came in to tell us that we had, had a missed miscarriage the baby had stopped developing at 9 weeks but my hormones carried on as if everything was normal so for 3 weeks our baby had been dead inside me and it was devastating knowing that when we had told everyone at Christmas we had already lost our little nuggie! We knew we had done nothing wrong and it was just this baby wasn't meant to be but I have never felt such pain or loss in my life, my husband was devastated and we sat in the room holding each other and crying for what felt like a life time.
The next day I had a d&c to remove the remaining tissue which was another awful ordeal for us, they told my husband it would be no longer then 15mins, 45mins later i still wasn't out and no-one had told him anything. The reason why I was so long was because on top of crying for my loss I also had a panic attack about being put under (hospitals freak me out) so they had to force me under. When I woke up I told them to get my husband, poor Jack was beside himself and my whole body was in shock I was ghost white and my whole body was shaking. The worst part is they didn't put the pad in right so when they pulled the blanket back the first thing we both saw was just blood down both my legs it was awful after 5hrs we were told we could finally go home.
We spent the weekend just holding each other and trying to relax, we stupidly went back to work on Monday and found out we are not the kind of people that can work through that kind of pain. Thankfully we have a wonderful employer who gave us both a weeks paid compassionate leave and we went away to the coast and swam every day and ate what ever we wanted and just held one another. During this time I was also had debilitating cramps to the point where i couldn't stand which was also lots of fun.
So we found out on the 9th January and had the d&c on the 10th fast forward to today and I thought i was doing well until this morning!! One of the women my mum works with (obviously one my mum hadn't told I had lost the baby) came up to me put her hand on my stomach and said congrats how far along are you now? Blah I burst into tears but thankfully as always hubby was by my side to hug me and tell me it would be ok so that's what has prompted this very long explanation of my missed miscarriage I just needed to get it all out uninterrupted and hopefully help me heal a little more!
I'm told your extremely fertile after a d&c so crossing our fingers and toes we will get our baby soon....
Stina
xxxx