So it is elective because they don't want me to go into labor due to the placenta position (1cm from cervix, with major underlying vessels) and a big risk (80%) that I will have a life threatening bleed if delivering vaginally..
I have know about this since 19 weeks, but have been told on numerous occasions that there is a good chance that it will move as the uterus grows, so have spent a lot of time preparing for a drug free vaginal birth (even had a spot in the birth center) now at 38+4 I am facing the extreme opposite to this and struggling to get my head around it..
Don't get me wrong, I will do what ever I have to to have a healthy baby and for both of us to be safe, and I am grateful that we live somewhere where this sort of thing can be detected and managed..
But I am full of pregnancy hormones and sad and ripped off and scared..
Even the fact that it is called an elective c-sect is upsetting me.. I have not 'elected' this, I am doing it because I have to!
So those of you out there that have had time to prepare for a cesarean, what did you do to get your head around the whole thing?