I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I know how you feel. You're not alone with this! I don't have a uterus but I have a desire to become a mother. Well there are some options for me. I chose surrogacy. Now I'm looking for information and where it can be done. This process is not easy at all. Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck and no one can help. I can't talk about it with friends or family. All people I know have children and don't have problems with fertility. They just don't get it. They will never understand how I feel. It feels like every month someone announces their pregnancy. Every month someone makes a baby shower. Not to mention all those photos of kids in social network. This is so hard and sometimes I feel like I can't take it anymore. I don't want to be rude but sometimes I have to skip baby showers or babies’ birthdays. I have to make up reasons not to go and it makes me feel a bad person. But what can I do? I'm sure when I will have my baby it will be easy for me. I will be able to divide happiness of parenthood with my friends. But now it makes me feel even more stressed than I am.
I'm coming again and again to this place hoping for all lovelies here struggling for their little ones. And this pains so much to see there are so many who've been suffering through yrs..I know how it feels seeing pregos around and knowing you're not likely to be the next on the list..I've always been in the straigned relationship with my cousin's wife. I'll explain. I even deactivated the social media. But I just had the feeling that because she was so young and he was such an idiot there was going to be all this resentment about me not fawning over her. Even though I was really just protecting my own heart and preserving her happiness for herself. She was one of those "other girls hate me" types with lots of constant meme posting about how people betray her etc. In other words, she was 23. If they couldn't figure out that maybe it wouldn't be a good idea to send us a fanfare filled driveby pregnancy text then I was not sure they had the maturity to understand distancing oneself due to pain.. I wish I could be excited or happy but I wasn't. Maybe it was because their children weren't related to me. Or maybe because I was not super close to them. Or I was personally experiencing with miscarriage then..Or the feelings of negativity I already had about that time of year.. Some living reminders of the child that I lost.. How could I ever expected to get over that and be happy for someone else?!.