Our first baby due to be induced in a week (at 37 weeks) due to cholestasis, and i'm terrified. I'm scared of the labour and i don't know how to look after a baby but i can't stand to be pregnant any longer because i feel so useless and the cholestasis itching is driving me insane.
I had such a good and easy pregnancy up until the last 4 weeks and i feel like i shouldnt complain but i just feel miserable.
I finished work on friday just gone, and im missing my friends at work and being useful. I cant get my head around not going to work for 12 months. Im not someone that can sit around in coffee shops or go shopping, or sit and natter away with mums clubs. Actually, im not very feminine at all.
Tv is so boring and i cant concentrate on doing anything because of the itching - thankfully much better due to meds, but still just a little bit there.
My husband is trying very hard, but gets controlling when he gets anxious, and is already starting with things like "in future dont leave the pantry door open" or "we need to keep this house much cleaner" (meaning i should)
When i told him they schdduled my induction for next week, he said i should have asked what partners should do, whether he can stay or what he should do. The doc didnt really give me time to ask anything, and honestly, whether my husband should go home and have a nap while im in hospital wasnt really my first question.
I get the feeling nothinf i do with baby or house is going to be right for th next 12 months and i just want to be back doing my job and seeing my friends and not commit to anything like this ever again. How could i be so stupid?
I feel terrible cos everyone is so excited about baby and i just am not. Ive never been a baby person, how can i look after a little person?
Anyone else feel like me? Sorry for the long and negative rant sad
I had such a good and easy pregnancy up until the last 4 weeks and i feel like i shouldnt complain but i just feel miserable.
I finished work on friday just gone, and im missing my friends at work and being useful. I cant get my head around not going to work for 12 months. Im not someone that can sit around in coffee shops or go shopping, or sit and natter away with mums clubs. Actually, im not very feminine at all.
Tv is so boring and i cant concentrate on doing anything because of the itching - thankfully much better due to meds, but still just a little bit there.
My husband is trying very hard, but gets controlling when he gets anxious, and is already starting with things like "in future dont leave the pantry door open" or "we need to keep this house much cleaner" (meaning i should)
When i told him they schdduled my induction for next week, he said i should have asked what partners should do, whether he can stay or what he should do. The doc didnt really give me time to ask anything, and honestly, whether my husband should go home and have a nap while im in hospital wasnt really my first question.
I get the feeling nothinf i do with baby or house is going to be right for th next 12 months and i just want to be back doing my job and seeing my friends and not commit to anything like this ever again. How could i be so stupid?
I feel terrible cos everyone is so excited about baby and i just am not. Ive never been a baby person, how can i look after a little person?
Anyone else feel like me? Sorry for the long and negative rant sad