Hi Angel -
Like everyone else here I wanted to send my hugs to you. I know this is a really rotten time for you, but you do need to think about yourself and your baby. Stress is the worst thing you can have.
Try to do something nice for yourself. Go get a pedicure (you can't reach your feet by now), go for a walk in a park and enjoy the beautiful sight of the leaves changing and think about your baby playing in those leaves as he grows up.
I know being a single parent is hard - I separated when my son was 18 months. But living in a relationship where you are miserable is even worse! You didn't plan for this to happen when the two of you decided to get pregnant. Things just happen sometime and we can't understand why. It's also very hard to see past the misery and pain to the future.
I can only tell you that looking back, I am so greatful that I went through the pain and heartache, because I have found a partner that loves me completely and does everything in his power to protect me and to stand up for me. He's not perfect, but neither am I. We are nearly 11 weeks pregnant with "our" first.
Please think of what's best for you and the baby. Don't think that this baby has to have 2 parents (common argumant people told me when I split up). If Michelle is going to be supportive and loving, great. But if not, as harsh as it may sound, it's not the end of the world. There will still be a beautiful loving family for you, and you can give all your love to this precious little person while you go through the healing process.
- In the scriptures is says something along the lines of " a man shall leave his parents and a woman leave hers and they shall cleave to each other and none other". This means we should put our partner before all others.
- It really tics me off when people blame things on hormones. It's even worse when another female does it to you, because who's to say they are not under the influence of hormones themselves at that time!!!