i know how you feel i was PUSHED by my doctors into having a try at a natural labour when i myself knew there was NO way in hell i'd be able to have this child naturally but since they were the doctors and knew better i thought i'd have a go. 16 hours of labour 4 of them with an epidural as i could not knack the pain anymore. after 16 hours i was 2cm dilated i was rushed in for an emergency c thank god i had the epidural as i would have had to be knocked out and my fiance would not have been able to be there to hold my hand as i was scared i nearly lost my daughter. if i would have not had her then and there she would have died. i could have lost my life too if i was back in my grandmothers day and that scares me too. i love my daughter dont get me wrong but she still dont feel like mine and she is nearly two. we have been trying for about 13 or so months to have another baby and this time its gonna be what i want and if the docs dont listen to me i am going to find someone who will. i am NOT going through what i did all over again. i am also sick of mothers who had normal labour that a c is the easy way out. i
had 9 weeks of excruciating pain not being able to walk, bend, stand, sit, fart, cough, laugh, cry, feed my daughter, get up when she cried, work, do any wifely-motherly duties except cry for the pain as i was prescribed medication for the pain after the major abdominal surgery and they constipated me and the pain from that was damn near as dramatc i stopped taking them so i did it tough for a while. i felt like a huge failure as a mother for not being able to have my daughter naturally and the stress of everything that happened and of her not wanting to breastfeed made my milk dry up and i went through it all over again as i was not able to breast feed my daughter like a MOTHER should. but i expressed for her and she got the best i could offer her at the time.
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Narelle, Eilish 5th june 2002 TTC since dec 2002