Scariest moment in hospital for me was being sat fully upright in bed and left to feed Kylara. At some point I'm pretty sure I fainted, because I suddenly woke up and realised I'd dropped her and she'd slipped off me. Thankfully the sides of the bed were up, so she couldn't fall off.
not that ive actually told anyone on any of these forums - or anyone infact apart from my family... I reacted to the drugs they gave me at the hosp, and I was breastfeeding one night and went quickly into a deep sleep(which is what the drug kept making me do) I woke up to Blake on the ground crying(luckily not screaming) I just cant believe he fell so far - ever since I don't trust myself holding him and am having real issues with trusting myself breastfeeding when i'm even slightly asleep :'( - I think the worst thing for me was the day after it happened i had a peddoc come in, she was russian and really and pretty much yelled at me and told me never to sleep with baby(even though I kept telling her I didnt) she continued to tell me over a 5 minute period where I burst into tears as soon as she left - my husband nearly turned around at her and yell right back -
the lack in confidence in myself over that incident now effects me on a daily basis:'(