Wow, what a horrible experience for you!! I also had an emergency caesarean and had a hard time. I am still quite scarred and don't think i'll ever emotionally recover.
I was 38 weeks when i had my internal and was told i was 2cms dilated so all those pains i was having were becoming something real. I was so excited but then had an ultrasound which confirmed my little baby hadn't eaten in 4 weeks off my placenta. His body measured at 39 weeks and his tummy was 35weeks. His kidneys were failing and no one could work out why. At 39 weeks they found out i had Cholestasis which could of caused his problems and my symptoms. It's a rare liver disease in which your body produces too much bile acid and if you have it you are meant to give birth between 36 and 38 weeks as after 38 weeks your body lets of poison into the baby's blood stream and can be potentially fatal for them. They booked me in for induced at exactly 40 weeks. I had an internal, i was already 3cms before they broke my waters which was great news. He was engaged and we were already to go. They broke my waters and mentioned then he was in a funny position and had been pushing my bag of waters to the side in my uterus. Then they started the drip at 10am. I was so sick during labour, my contractions were 1min apart for the first 3 hours, i asked for an epidural. 2 hours later i got my epidural. By then my contractions were on top of one another and the epi only worked for 1 hour. They tried turning the drip off as his heartrate was dropping really quickly and then going back up. I was 7cms dilated at 5pm which was great news. An hour or so later i dropped back to 5cms when they mentioned a caesarean as he wasn't coming. By 7pm his heartrate was constantly sitting around 70bpm. I was prepped for surgery then and there.
I cried the whole time. My body had failed to do something that was supposed to be so natural. 10mins later i heard my baby cry. I never got to touch him, just a quick glance and they took him away while i laid on the table for another hour while they stitched me up. I couldn't move hardly for a week. I was so sore, i walked as much as i could but didnt make a difference. It took me 10mins to get off and on the bed and each time i felt like i ripped everything open.
I developed a infection on my scar that weeped constantly for 5 months. It wouldn't go away. From the skin bursting open, i have 2 holes on my scar that will never go away, my scar is jagged too. I get constant period like cramps to this day that they don't know what it is from. I have had follow up surgery and have only just stopped getting burning when i stand up. I am numb and my scar feels horrible if i touch near it. It's been 10.5 months and i never ever thought it would take so long to heal. Oh and i was also told i had to have a caesarean because of my small pelvic bone. I don't have a small pelvis.
I am hoping too for a VBAC, we are trying for another baby in 4 months. They have to constantly monitor me because of the cholestasis and i have a thyroid disease. There is more risk to the baby this time around but if i have another c/s, i have already been warned it may be my last. I just can't risk that.
I'm looking forward to my next pregnancy but i am also very scared because of the risks. My Ob will support me as he knows what i had to go through.
Good luck to you, september isn't too far away! xx