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Do you remember my doom and gloom thread from yonks ago? Well, I've been diagnosed with pnd.

Its still a bit.... Unsettling i guess is the word, to know that that's happening to me. In fact, i think knowing makes me feel a tad bit worse!

Both the councillors I've spoken to have suggested i need medicating but Im not keen on it. I know it will help but Im not comfortable with it. I hide behind the excuse that i don't want Ds getting it through my milk but there's something else that just makes me want to run away. Ill be seeing the psych soon who will be prescribing if he thinks its necessary.

I haven't been overly comfortable with my councillor yet. There's a lot of guts id like to spill but its hard when your talking to someone you don't know. Plus i have Ds with me so my mummy instincts tell me to hold myself together.

Any way the main reason Im writing this is because...

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THANK YOU

Thank you to all of you who supported me. To those who told me straight up that something wasn't right. To those of you who gave me a kick up the butt.
It was what my babies needed.

Thank you miskel for telling me to examine my own thread. It opened my eyes.

THANK YOU ALL.

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OOOHHH... INTERNET FIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? CAPS LOCK ME TOO DEATH?
(Noddy's not fat ffs!)

Good luck on the road to normal ness smile
massive hugs nods. You are amazing.
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smile glad to hear you're getting some help Noddy!

I was diagnosed with pnd about a month ago, I'm seeing a counsellor once a week now and she has recommend medication but like you I am unsure about going down that path... My anxiety and stress levels are through the roof too, so hopefully the counselling will be enough smile

Anyways, no advice or anything, just wanted to let you know I'm in the same boat, it took a lot of guts for me to admit I had a problem and I imagine it was the same for you! Stay strong, it has to get better smile






I took meds to get me through the initial horridness of PND, don't be afraid of them. I used them and went down other roads of fixing myself also. I was at a point where I could have possibly harmed DS1 so a quick fix was needed for me to avoid that, I took them for about 6 months while exercising, getting out and socialising more, working on liking being a mum.

The other thing I did was stop BF, and that helped 100% but that was because I hated doing it, that's not for everyone though.

You have made the first step, congratulations, you are a good mum smile

Aka G&L smile

To be the best MUM you can be, you must first be the best YOU you can be. smile

Congratulations on taking the first step. Things will get better.
Well said Axiom smile
Thank you ALL

Axiom. I want to get someone to watch Ds. I just don't know how. He has no regularity to his days at all. I don't know when he will sleep or eat at all. Im going to a child health nurse that i get along with really well on Wednesday and she's going to help me get Ds into some type of pattern and hopefully eating solids. When that happens i think it will be easier. But i also have the hurdle of dh not wanting anyone to look after Ds. Sigh.

We will get there. Slowly.




OOOHHH... INTERNET FIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? CAPS LOCK ME TOO DEATH?
(Noddy's not fat ffs!)

Giggle and laugh

Its a good point you make about bf. I font enjoy it. But i don't know if that's because Ds and i aren't on the best terms, if its because he feeds so often due to refusing solids or just me. But i do know Im very torn between doing what is best for my baby and what i think is good for me.

When i think about ending bf i have a lot of mixed feelings.




OOOHHH... INTERNET FIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? CAPS LOCK ME TOO DEATH?
(Noddy's not fat ffs!)

Hey darlin, I know exactly what you mean about the meds. I was the same and couldn't face up to the thought of it. Took one tablet from the box and couldn't take another one. BUT... my dh and my mum convinced me that I didn't have pnd at that time which made me feel justified in not taking them.

I now know I should have taken them. I hadn't told them what I'd told the GP.

Good luck hun, only you can help yourself. (with a bit of nagging from us too maybe. wink )




Baileys mum

Its great to know Im not alone. smile

I think probably medication would help me. Im just uneasy about it. Don't really know why.




OOOHHH... INTERNET FIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? CAPS LOCK ME TOO DEATH?
(Noddy's not fat ffs!)

Chalys XD

Yes, i haven't told anyone what i told the gp and councillor. My mother wants to flick it under the rug. My dh keeps asking me if the kids can be taken away because of what i say (that just brings a huge lump to my throat) logically i know they can't/won't but him voicing it just makes me feel scared and guilty. My dad has surprisingly been the most supportive though a bit over zealous -called me to ask "how i was going" and hugs me and tells me "we all love you" as though Im dying.


At the end of the day its hard for me to get this clear in my head when I've got everyone else all over the place. Lol.




OOOHHH... INTERNET FIGHT. WHAT ARE YOU GONNA DO? CAPS LOCK ME TOO DEATH?
(Noddy's not fat ffs!)

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