hi guys. soory to hear about all of your losses, but in a way it makes me feel better coz i know that im not the only one now.
in 2001 we lost our mum in a car accident (she was drink driving) but theres more to it than that-there was a reason why she was driving, but thats still no excuse. and then 9 months later we lost our dad to cancer, im 20 now, but was only 17 at the time, and was the oldest out of all us kids. the public trustee kicked us out of our house and tried to take alot away from us but thank god someone we knew, knew how to get in touch with the premier of sa and he pulled some strings and we were given a housing trust place for 2 years and were allowed to keep all of dads things.(mum and dad werent together so all her stuff went to her partner)
it has been really tough. through my pregnancy i had pre-eclampsia and didnt have a great birth, all i wanted was my mum or my dad.
i was hospitalized in jan because my blood pressure went through the roof, and the hospital i was going to was where my dad passed away and they wanted me to stay in there on his anniversary-NO WAY! i got my way and they let me out a day early!
my baby lachlan is only 8 weeks old and he has had a few problems and every day i think to myself i wish i had my mum here. she was such a baby person, thats why she had 5 of her own!
i have my partners step mum and his mum, but they arent the same as the real thing. with my own mum i could ring her and ask her to come and help me and give me a few hours off and she would come straight away no matter what she was doing, but these other women have their own lives and their own children to look after.
the songs that we played at mums funeral were stairway to heaven, candle in the wind and the last farewell(roger whittikar) its the most beautiful song and my mum loved it. well she loved them all.. at my dads we played you are not alone by micheal jackson, when i die by no mercy and at the end we had pachebells canon playing when we all went to say one last goodbye. all of these songs make me cry!
i feel much better getting all of that off of my chest now! it just needs to be said every now and again, but i find the people who cant relate to what iam talking about are the ones who dont want to hear it or think i go on about it too much.
anyone who wants to chat with me do so, because its not very often i find people like yourselves in a similar situation!