Hope you are doing ok. I suffered from pnd during my pregnancy and after the birth of my daughter although it took professionals weeks to diagnose me. I can understand the feeling of being completely alone - I felt as though I was made of concrete and was being sucked into a black hole.
How did I manage? My mum and my hubby were both a huge support and I forced myself to tell my friends and ask for help. My daughter and I also spent some time in Tresillian where they helped me to learn strategies to cope with my PND. I also tried making lists of things that I achieved during the day, even if it was only making the bed and cooking dinner. Gradually the lists grew and I made sure I started to include some things for me on them. Ever so slowly I healed and although it took me about 17 months, the days definitely got brighter after about 4 months.
I hope this helps. Stay well and treasure your child.
Carly - mummy to Alyssa, Ava and Mason